breaking stone hearts,
This is the last time that he will see her.
The very last.
After this he goes back ten thousand miles and 6 years. And she goes forward to a brilliant future.
After this, there will be no more accidental run ins. No teary eyed good byes. After this there will only be memories.
Bitter sweet.
Coated in grief with haphazardly sprinkled pleasure.
He digs out the little angel sculpted in crystal from the box and stares at it while he waits for her to steal her way down to his car.
He looks at it and smiles.
Anniversary gift.
5 months too late.
She didn’t even send a card.
So I’ll still come out on top.
The little translucent angel holding a blue topaz heart.
Black and blue would’ve been more appropriate.
Closes his palm around it, feels the wings dig into his skin. Closes his eyes and leans his head back.
Tap tap tap on the window.
She has arrived
Vini Vidi Vici.
His heart sinks.
The only woman in the world who can still make his heart sink.
He rolls down the window, she bends down to look straight into his eyes.
What is she trying to see anyway?
He plasters a smile on his face, she already wearing hers.
Heyhellohowareyou
Heyhelloimfinehowareyou
I’mgoodtoowhatdidyouwanttoseemefor
Nothingjustonelasttimeileavetommorow
Oh
Taking the car to the chop shop abhi you wanna save any pieces of it
Heh no is that it?
Yeah that’s it
Can I go now?
Heh u say that as if you would stay if I asked you to
I might
Stay
I can’t
You won’t
I won’t
I know
I’ll pray for you. Best of luck with every thing make your parents proud. I know you will get the Audi one day.
But I’ll never get you
Don’t make this harder than it has to be
Okay I got you something
What
It was for our anniversary but you never came for that and when you did come…well…
What is it?
Its you.
The silence of an unwanted gift being opened
The gasp of an unexpected surprise
The silent fall of a blue topaz heart
The subtle tinkle of stone on tarmac
This is beautiful
You just lost the heart
Huh?
It was holding a heart. It just fell down
Where?
The creak of tight fitting jeans bending at the knees
Let it go its too dark to find a heart that small
I’m so sorry
Hey its yours what ever you do with it is your loss
Yeah
Iloveyou
Iloveyoutoo
Thatsalie
Believeit
Goodbye?
Goodbye.
The cacophony of traffic passing by
Horns and engines
People calling out to people they know
Friend hugging, slapping high fives
And she walks away
He watches her turn to a shadow.
To a silhouette.
To nothing.
She doesn’t turn around.
Just walks on.
He puts the car in reverse.
Slowly presses the accelerator, looking at where she stood just a moment ago, the light breeze swaying his hair out of his eyes.
Suddenly there’s a moment of silence.
Complete and utter silence
Only his heart beating and the engine purring.
As if the world decided this moment was worth mourning.
The car eases back wards.
And there it is. In the three second silence.
The soft crunch of a blue topaz heart breaking between tarmac and rubber.
Comments
lady: The angel was holding a heart, not neccessarily hers. He drove over his own. And it didn't feel good. Just right.
Sammish: Life is.
Angelus: You didn't ruin it. You just gave it a less tragic turn. Unfortunately life isn't that kind.
Ozair: Don't change the picture man, it rocks. I was just being cheeky
that was sad :/
my blog has been possessed. thats sad too.
where have you dissapeared?
How you????
Mehwish: Oh my Freakin GOD!!! Are you seroius??? I'm kinda so so about being compared to danielle steel, but teh kind of money he/she makes, heh, Damn. YOu serious? Dan brown, ah well he;s the worlds best liar. Hands down. Love his work. Well respect, if not love. So yet again, mega flattered.
Thnx a bunch for you compliments. And thsi on a post i'm not very well proud of, can't wait for you to read some of my earlier stuff and see who i get compared with
:D
I'm hoping for Hemingway... :P But u know someone lesser wud do too.
Thnkoo so much for visiting ma blog.
LUci: Yur such a liar. Then again, yur supposed to be. So Bravo? I suppose, you still got teh evil in you.
Dolphin: WB. Goo dto have you back, Dun let my morbidity distract you though, This blog will still be here after your parchas, hoewver if you bungle up yoru grades, then there ain't no going back. Good luck.
Lady: Rehnay do bae, besides luci the only person i saw online on my only bout with sucky dial-up was you and you never even said hi to my hey. Hmph.
I've decided now - It's a completely love-less arranged marriage for me now. I'll be happier when there's no heart to break. Also chances are I don't have one now anyway, I gave mine away four years ago - I stil havent gotten it back. I don't think I ever will.
Although i would feel like a reall asshole for being in a love less marriage because thatw ould negate teh entire purpose of a union. So i'm gonna forgo the whole rigamarole all together and spend my life in the pursuit of sexual healing :D
Damnit, i still don't know how you can give up on love, cuz i haven't yet. But in teh last year what i have come to understand is that love really isn't all that important to some people. They don't see it as the be all end off of life itself. Its just some salad dressing to add a lil zest to life, not teh salad. I think i'm hungry now. And utterly bemused. :S
sometimes love is just not enough.
sometimes you need more than that.
sometimes real life kicks in.
sometimes you need face the facts.
sexual healing.. hmmm doesn't go a long way in healing anything. trust me. been there. done that. everything's fine till one morning you wake up and that one person still stirs inside you.
oh, btw, i think ur work sucks. seriously. you should already start considering a caareer in building cow dung houses. seriously. :-)
by far the most horny song ever.
msn is a funny place.
thankyou for listening.
Disco:
Yur welcome :) Although you did most of the listening...
Sam: Sigh un due praise!! Cuz soon, pretty soon you will find something new here, that won't be amazing.
I was just trying to get as many compliments as i could while i still did good;) NAh, i'm back just getting into teh groove of things, will be posting soon. Thnku for keeping your eye on my blog. Its mots flattering. I may or may not be blushing right now, but i sure as hell am smiling.